But we don’t. And we never will.
“Oh, the depths of the riches both of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are His judgments and unfathomable His ways! For who has known the mind of the Lord, or who became His counselor? Or who has first given to Him that it might be paid back to Him again?” – Romans 11:33-35
“The thoughts of God no one knows except the Spirit of God.” – 1 Corinthians 2:11
Take comfort in the fact that nothing escapes the Lord. He knows about your heartache. He knows about your pain. But maybe instead of trying to figure Him out, trying to decipher His reasoning and decisions — maybe just let Him be God and let you be His child. Let Him hold your tears; let Him bring you strength; let Him be your joy.
I think that’s what trust is all about: not having to know everything and simply leaning on the strength of the One who does.
“‘I do not consider my life of any account as dear to myself, so that I may finish my course and the ministry which I received from the Lord Jesus, to testify solemnly of the gospel of the grace of God.'” — Acts 20:24